What do you think a normal human being needs to have a good and satisfying life? I believe you need freedom of thought, the rights of love, the right to express yourself on paper and freedom of speech. In Orwell's totalitarian world you have none of these freedoms. You have to obey the party and do nothing but obey the party. The only way to temporarily escape totalitarianism is through conspiracy and lies. The characters in 1984 give us readers an idea of ​​how INGSOC ruins lives and makes the very idea of ​​conspiracy hopeless. Winston Smith is your "average Joe" in Oceania. Struggle with how to determine what is true or not. Winston is a fatalist because “no matter what he does, he believes the party will kill him in the end. At the beginning of the book, Winston buys a diary from a second-hand dealer, which is against the party's wishes because by purchasing the diary he is committing a crime against the party. Simply purchasing the diary made no difference whether he wrote in it or not he would still be killed. On page 19 of the book Orwell wrote: “Whether he wrote DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER, or whether he abstained from writing it, made no difference. Whether he continued with the diary or not made no difference. I thought the police would have caught him anyway. This demonstrates Winston's sense of fatalism. While in the shop where Winston purchased the diary, he sees a piece of coral encased in glass. He is immediately interested and decides to buy it. This piece of coral symbolizes his ability to connect to the past. Winston's first inclination when he sees Julia following him is to kill her and smash her head on the cobblestone. Winston thinks to himself, “I could follow her tracks until they're in a quiet place, and then smash her skull in with a rock. The piece of glass in my pocket should do the job. By smashing the piece of glass in Julia's head, Winston would destroy two things. One is Julia and her hopes of having a decent life but her obsessive desire to know the truth and the second is the piece of coral which is Winston's way of connecting the past to the present. Winston is afraid that Julia might be part of the thought police.